Last Night in Japan

I was in Japan until Saturday, on Friday night all of us took the train to Osaka to have dinner with Tets's family. Dinner was nice, everyone trying their best to get to know each other. Tets's Dad suggested we all go to the Onsen, which I figured I could handle, it would be boys and girls separate, so the worst would be me seeing Tets's sister and mother naked and vice versa. So we go and it's pretty awkward. Tets's sister asked me about spa's in the US and if everyones body was more like mine. Ouch. So we go for massages and someone is telling Naoko something about me in Japanese....we get the massages and then sit in the relaxation room. Naoko goes to get in the jacuzzi again, and she tells me I cannot go because I have tattoos, that it's not allowed. Ouch x2.

I wait for her then get dressed/dry my hair etc. We're supposed to meet the men at a designated time, but an hour and half goes by with no word so we walk back to the hotel. about 30 min later there's a txt from Tets saying he didn't know what happened with the time etc. I was really upset, it was so uncomfortable to be in the situation in the first place, and then everything else. Tets has such a bad record with being on time etc, that it felt like disregard. I was hurt. Went to bed, next morning up and ready at designated meeting time, Danny arrives, Tets and Takemura don't. Danny calls and their asleep. Again, the total disregard of time. So Danny and I navigate the trains back to Shinegawa and then the bus and then the airport. Tets txtd and said he was going to come to Narita-which is 5 hrs away from Osaka, and a total waste of his day, I replied not to, it was a waste of his time. Just as we were going through security Danny said Tets was trying to get there but he was still on the Shikansen which is still 2+ hours away, so kinda BS. So there's a lot of reasons I feel upset about it, the week was kinda Boys Time and I felt it, although Danny and Tets were both really sick there's still a lot of smoke breaks where they are making business decisions with out discussing it with me, and lots of times where I feel left out. Also I am aware I have unrealistic expectations on my relationship with Tets....I am clear what kind of relationship it is, but at the same time it meets other needs, and when my needs aren't met it brings up a lot of other junk. I think I'm doing my dance with him and instead of just stopping, I just pause. The worst is I can totally visualize myself dancing like the SNL guys and he's just standing there. So stupid. I've given him a lot of say in my life, and need to stop that, but still somehow balance a healthy friendship and work partnership. I think I do have a right to be mad and hurt but can't really have these kind of expectations, so I'm going to try and figure it out.

Made it home without incident. So tired yesterday but OK today. Today was first day of Japanese class, jumped right in, with writing and some sentence structure. I've got to try and rearrange some travel so I don't miss too many classes.

What else? Some internet prospects have popped up but I have no positive or negative feelings so I am not sure if it'll work out or if it's worth my time...we'll see.