Sunday, August 1, 2010

I'm going to do this again

I am doing this again mostly because I can't find anything nearly like my life on the internet. Maybe it's out there....IDK. The internet teaches us to be ADD if nothing else, so if it doesn't come up in the top 3 I am not going to find it. I am still 100 yrs old and mostly friendless and with no significant other or prospect for one in the future. Today I am OK with that. Other days it makes me sad.

I have 2 kids...7 and 15.5...15.5 was arrested for a felony 1 week ago. He stole cigarettes with 2 friends, $3k worth. He would've sold the cigarettes for money to buy pot. So now we are waiting to see what happens next. He's working through his summer school stuff, staying home, supervised 100% of the time. I am sure he is withdrawing from smoking pot and cigarettes. In some ways it's a relief to know he's here and not doing anything he shouldn't be. No cell phone, no house phone privileges.

I am a responsible adult, I have a full time job. I am focused on my kids, I don't have drinking problem. I don't recreationaly use drugs. I work, I take care of my responsibilities and still I have a son who committed a felony. No one really addresses the fact that you can be doing mostly the right things and still things turn out not so good. "mostly the right things" I think if I had stayed married longer it wouldn't have turned out this way. Also the little things through out his childhood...no quitting soccer! No rated PG movies! No tolerating the substance abuser in our family...but here we are.

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